North Bound

STAR

2009-09-20T14:53:00.000+08:00

Why a red star? One of the innumerable luminous bodies seen in the heavens; any heavenly body other than the sun, moon, comets, and nebulae. Red for passion.

One Youth

2009-08-29T19:59:00.000+08:00

divishop

2009-08-19T17:59:00.001+08:00

Will start an online store with lee.... hope it works =)

New Phase

2009-03-25T21:18:00.001+08:00

Just recently updated this blog. I haven't been on this since forever.

Birthday Girl

2007-06-17T11:34:00.000+08:00

It sure hasn't been easy living in this country for the past 27 years...
Today is my 28th year living under the Filipino sun.
A lot has changed, and a lot has not changed.
What can I say... being pinoy is the best. Given the chance
I would love to be born pinoy again. For the simple reason that Filipinos
are on the middle of everything. We're not poor, but we're not rich either.
OK, mostly poor, but happy and poor.

Someone emailed me an article, from an American Expat. What he says is true.

read on:

The Philippines Through the Eyes of a Foreigner
Posted by: " Cavalier58@AOL.COM "

A Point of View
Inferiority Complex: A Filipino Malady?
by Barth Suretsky
_____

The unedited article below was written below by an American friend, Barth
Suretsky. This will still be edited but you will get the gist. I find his
observations interesting. I hope this will make an impact on the Filipinos
who read this article as I greatly lament the worsening situation of our
country. - Frank Woolf
_____

My decision to move to Manila was not a precipitous one. I used to work in
New York as an outside agent for PAL, and have been coming to the
Philippines since August, 1982. I was so impressed with the country, and
with the interesting people I met, some of which have become very close
friends to this day, that I asked for and was granted a year's sabbatical
from my teaching job in order to live in the Philippines. I arrived here on
August 21, 1983, several hours after Ninoy Aquino was shot, and remained
here until June of 1984. During that year I visited many parts of the
country, from as far north as Laoag to as far south as Zamboanga, and
including Palawan. I became deeply immersed in the history and culture of
the archipelago, and an avid collector of tribal antiquities from both
northern Luzon, and Mindanao.

In subsequent years I visited the Philippines in 1985, 1987, and 1991,
before deciding to move here permanently in 1998. I love this country, but
not uncritically, and that is the purpose of this article.
First, however, I will say that I would not consider living anywhere else in
Asia , no matter how attractive certain aspects of other neighboring
countries may be. To begin with, and this is most important, with all its
faults, the Philippines is still a democracy, more so than any other nation
in Southeast Asia. Despite gross corruption, the legal system generally
works, and if ever confronted with having to employ it, I would feel much
more safe trusting the courts here than in any other place in the
surrounding area. The press here is unquestionably the most unfettered and
freewheeling in Asia, and I do not believe that is hyperbole in any way! And
if any one thing can be used as a yardstick to measure the extent of the
democratic process in any given country in the world, it is the extent to
which the press is free.

But the Philippines is a flawed democracy nevertheless, and the flaws are
deeply rooted in the Philippine psyche. I will elaborate.
The basic problem seems to me, after many years of observation, to be a
national inferiority complex, a disturbing lack of pride in being Filipino.
Toward the end of April I spent eight days in Vietnam, visiting Hanoi, Hue,
and Ho Chi Minh City. I am certainly no expert on Vietnam, but what I saw
could not be denied: I saw a country ravaged as no other country has been in
this century by thirty years of continuous and incredibly barbaric warfare.
When the Vietnam War ended in April, 1975, the country was totally
devastated. Yet in the past twenty-five years the nation has healed and
rebuilt itself almost miraculously! The countryside has been replanted and
reforested. Hanoi and HCMC have been beautifully restored. The opera house
in Hanoi is a splended restoration of the original, modeled after the Opera
in Paris, and the gorgeous Second Empire theater, on the main square of HCMC
is as it was when built by the French a century ago. The streets are
tree-lined, clean, and conducive for strolling. Cafes in the French style
proliferate on the wide boulevards of HCMC. I am not praising the government
of Vietnam, which still has a long way to travel on the road to democracy,
but I do praise, and praise unstintingly, the pride of the Vietnamese
people. It is due to this pride in being Vietnamese that has enabled its
citizenry to undertake the miracle of restoration that I have described
above.

When I returned to Manila I became so depressed that I was actually
physically ill for days thereafter. Why? Well, let's go back to a period
when the Philippines resembled the Vietnam of 1975. It was 1945, the end of
World War II, and Manila, as well as many other cities, lay in ruins. (As a
matter of fact, it may not be generally known, but Manila was the second
most destroyed city in the entire war; only Warsaw was more demolished!)

But to compare Manila in 1970, twenty-five years after the end of the war,
with HCMC, twenty-five years after the end of its war, is a sad exercise
indeed. Far from restoring the city to its former glory, by 1970 Manila was
well on its way to being the most tawdry city in Southeast Asia. And since
that time the situation has deteriorated alarmingly. We have a city full of
street people, beggars, and squatters. We have a city that floods sections
whenever there is a rainstorm, and that loses electricity with every clap of
thunder.

We have a city full of potholes, and on these unrepaired roads we have a
traffic situation second to none in the world for sheer unmanageability. We
have rude drivers, taxis that routinely refuse to take passengers because of
"many trappic!" The roads are also cursed with pollution-spewing buses in
disreputable states of repair, and that ultimate anachronism, the jeepney!
We have an educational system that allows children to attend schools without
desks or books to accommodate them. Teachers, even college professors, are
paid salaries so disgracefully low that it's a wonder that anyone would want
to go into the teaching profession in the first place. We have a war in
Mindanao that nobody seems to have a clue how to settle. The only policy to
deal with the war seems to be to react to what happens daily, with no long
range plan whatever. I could go on and on, but it is an endeavor so filled
with futility that it hurts me to go on. It hurts me because, in spite of
everything, I love the Philippines.

Maybe it will sound simplistic, but to go back to what I said above, it is
my unshakable belief that the fundamental thing wrong with this country is a
lack of pride in being Filipino. A friend once remarked to me, laconically:
"All Filipinos want to be something else. The poor ones want to be American,
and the rich ones all want to be Spaniards. Nobody wants to be Filipino."
That statement would appear to be a rather simplistic one, and perhaps it
is. However, I know one Filipino who refuses to enter a theater until the
national anthem has stopped being played because he doesn't want to honor
his own country, and I know another one who thinks that history stopped dead
in 1898 when the Spaniards departed! While it is certainly true that these
represent extreme examples of national denial, the truth is not a pretty
picture.

Filipinos tend to worship, almost slavishly, everything foreign. If it comes
from Italy or France it has to be better than anything made here. If the
idea is American or German it has to be superior to anything that Filipinos
can think up for themselves. Foreigners are looked up to and idolized.
Foreigners can go anywhere without question. In my own personal experience I
remember attending recently an affair at a major museum here. I had
forgotten to bring my invitation. But while Filipinos entering the museum
were checked for invitations, I was simply waived through. This sort of
thing happens so often here that it just accepted routine.
All of these things, the illogical respect given to foreigners simply
because they are not Filipinos, the distrust and even disrespect shown to
any homegrown merchandise, the neglect of anything Philippine, the rudeness
of taxi drivers, the ill-manners shown by many Filipinos are all symptomatic
of a lack of self-love, of respect for and love of the country in which they
were born, and worst of all, a static mind-set in regard to finding ways to
improve the situation. Most Filipinos, when confronted with evidence of
governmental corruption, political chicanery, or gross exploitation on the
part of the business community, simply shrug their shoulders, mutter "bahala
na," and let it go at that.
It is an oversimplification to say this, but it is not without a grain of
truth to say that Filipinos feel downtrodden because they allow themselves
to feel downtrodden. No pride.

One of the most egregious examples of this lack of pride, this uncaring
attitude to their own past or past culture, is the wretched state of
surviving architectural landmarks in Manila and elsewhere. During the
American period many beautiful and imposing buildings were built, in what we
now call the "art deco" style (although, incidentally, that was not a
contemporary term; it was coined only in the 1960s). These were beautiful
edifices, mostly erected during, or just before, the Commonwealth period.
Three, which are still standing, are the Jai Alai Building, the Metropolitan
Theater, and the Rizal Stadium. Fortunately, due to the truly noble efforts
of my friend John Silva, the Jai Alai Building will now be saved. But unless
something is done to the most beautiful and original of these three
masterpieces of pre-war Philippine architecture, the Metropolitan Theater,
it will disintegrate. The Rizal Stadium is in equally wretched shape. When
the wreckers' ball destroyed Frank Lloyd Wright's Imperial Hotel in Tokyo,
and New York City's most magnificent building, Pennsylvania Station, both in
1963, Ada Louise Huxtable, then the architectural critic of The New York
Times, wrote: "A disposable culture loses the right to call itself a
civilization at all!" How right she was! (Fortunately, the destruction of
Pennsylvania Station proved to be the sacrificial catalyst that resulted in
the creation of New York's Landmark Commission. Would that such a commission
be created for Manila...)

Are there historical reasons for this lack of national pride? We can say
that until the arrival of the Spaniards there was no sense of a unified
archipelago constituted as one country. True. We can also say that the high
cultures of other nations in the region seemed, unfortunately, to have
bypassed the Philippines; there are no Angkors, no Ayuttayas, no
Borobudurs.True. Centuries of contact with the "high cultures" of the Khmers
and the Chinese had, except for the proliferation of Song dynasty pottery
found throughout the archipelago, no noticeable effect.
True. But all that aside, what was here?
To begin with, the ancient rice terraces, now threatened with
disintegration, incidentally, was an incredible feat of engineering for
so-called "primitive" people. As a matter of fact, when I first saw them in
1984, I was almost as awe-stricken as I was when I first laid eyes on the
astonishing Inca city of Machu Picchu, high in the Peruvian Andes. The
degree of artistry exhibited by the various tribes of the cordillera of
Luzon is testimony to a remarkable culture, second to none in the Southeast
Asian region. As for Mindanao, at the other end of the archipelago, an
equally high degree of artistry has been manifest for centuries in
woodcarving, weaving and metalwork.

However, the most shocking aspect of this lack of national pride, even
identity, endemic in the average Filipino, is the appalling ignorance of the
history of the archipelago since unified by Spain and named Filipinas. The
remarkable stories concerning the Galleon de Manila, the courageous
repulsion of Dutch and British invaders from the 16th through the 18th
centuries, even the origins of the independence movement of the late 19th
century, are hardly known by the average Filipino in any meaningful way. And
thanks to fifty years of American brainwashing, it is few and far between
the number of Filipinos who really know - or even care - about the duplicity
employed by the Americans and Spaniards to sell out and make meaningless the
very independent state that Aguinaldo declared on June 12, 1898. A people
without a sense of history is a people doomed to be unaware of their own
identity. It is sad to say, but true, that the vast majority of Filipinos
fall into this lamentable category. Without a sense of who you are how can
you possibly take any pride in who you are?

These are not oversimplifications. On the contrary, these are the root
problems of the Philippine inferiority complex referred to above. Until the
Filipino takes pride in being Filipino these ills of the soul will never be
cured. If what I have written here can help, even in the smallest way, to
make the Filipino aware of just who he is, who he was, and who he can be, I
will be one happy expat indeed!

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Action Figures

2007-05-08T17:35:00.000+08:00

Just got them today!
Superman Through The Ages set which includes 4 figures, a JLA Wonder Woman Action Figure, and a Wonder Woman Kingdom Come action figure which is still in the box..... I LOVE THEM!

BUHAWI

2007-04-29T10:34:00.000+08:00

Look at this pic:

It was scary watching that thing. I was at the balcony of our apartment and looked up and saw this awesome thing. The clouds were circling as if forming a vortex. Good thing it stopped after a while. But I was in total awe.

GOING TO BOHOL

2007-04-29T10:32:00.000+08:00

I'll be off to Bohol today in the afternoon with my Momma.

Will give you a lotta pics since I have this new digicam that
I'll be testing. Cheers!

What's On Karla

2007-03-25T07:04:00.000+08:00

OK... am up to my nose in bills and stuff...jeez... help!
But I know I can wing it....somehow.
If only someone can help a bit...jeez.

What have I been up to?

Well, a lot of things...mostly work... an outing with friends,
and just simply enjoying life.

I went to Baguio with my friends and my good friend James Hall.

It was both fun and crappy...I love Baguio. But I spent most of my time inside bars and hotel rooms. I barely got to see Baguio. Darn.

But it was fun spending time with friends. Wish I had pictures but my phone got stolen (see my previous posts).

Anyway, back to work.... I'll be spending a lot of time in the beaches, so I'll post more pics when I can. Just came from a pool outing with some CallWave agents and good girl Mae.... very tiring but fun nontheless.

xoxoxoxo

The Election

2007-03-01T08:53:00.000+08:00

Ok, it's time for the local elections here in the Philippines. Personally, it's a load of hogwash. Streets will be littered with election paraphernalia and walls would be full of those ugly politicians's faces.

It'll be a carnival, one I'd hate to be part of. Hence the reason why I abstained from voting ever since whenever.

It's like watching a parody of sorts. Life is a parody.

People around you are bunches of morons waiting for their own demise.

The world seems like it'll end sooner than expected with these idiotic personalities present in Philippine politics.

From what I heard, we're not alone.

Americans have to worry about another idiot as head of their country.

CHIZZZZZ!

2007-03-01T06:24:00.000+08:00

Sam Milby and Piolo Pascual

2007-02-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

In Love?

What's Up

2007-02-09T05:25:00.000+08:00

Ok, I've been so out of the blogging scene for a couple of months.

As you may have heard, I have been mugged, my Lola died, I moved, and upgraded. All in the span of a month and a half. I didn't know that so much can happen in so little time.

Is it just me, or are the planets out to get me? But truthfully, change has been good. I have accomplished so much and done so much that if I am my own daughter, I'd be a mighty proud mom!

Next project on my list would be to own a house. My own house. I don't know if I can afford it yet but hopefully I can. I need a 3-bedroom house for me and my immediate family, and maybe also when I get married. Owning a house is a huge achievement for a small-time filipino family.

So guys, pray for me.

Right now, am looking forward to a vacation on the beach this coming week. It's sort of a working vacation since I needed to get somethings done, but it's a nice change of pace.

And Barry my baby, thanks for the Nano.

Floyd, ako rin nag IQ test!

2007-01-26T06:27:00.000+08:00

Mac

2007-01-26T05:22:00.000+08:00

Gosh, I'd love to have a Mac Book Pro...(People if you can, send me one ok?)

I love the metal finish and the huge screen.....mommy! It's so freakin' great. My friend bought one and I saw it yesterday and took a picture.... it's dumbfreakin fantastic!

Here's the pic I took:

WOW. I want one.

What A New Year...

2007-01-10T16:58:00.000+08:00

What a way to start the new year...jeezz......

All in all, it's not half bad... we moved to a new apartment, bought new stuff, and we're free!!!!

But everything has its price...a huge price. No sweat (even if I know I sweat glitter).

Anyway, here's a peek at our huge apartment....the color is grotesque but I'll be fixing that... for five grand a pop, it's worth it...it's the whole 3rd floor of a building and I like it sooo much!

I'll post more later on.

Honda Happy

2006-10-15T14:41:00.000+08:00

There are some things that you really have to have. As for me, I indulged in getting a motorcycle,not a fancy one. It's a small 100cc of bike called the Honda Wave. It's cool and it's the first time I ever am using a shifting bike,so I had trouble at first,but it's so darn awesome.I love it...can't wait to get my license.

Amici Di Don Bosco

2006-10-15T14:22:00.000+08:00

I have been reading numerous blogs on food (so, I guess I'm a foodie), and I'm in a Yahoo Group called PINOYFRUGALCHOWHOUND, when I first heard about this small eatery along Arnaiz Avenue called Amici Di Don Bosco. Amici means 'friends' in Italian. I read so much about it and people were talking so much about it, so me and my friend Alona decided to drop by.

I was fortunate enough to get tips from another blog who I am an avid reader of. Be sure to check out http://www.marketmanila.com because that guy is totally awesome. He has great taste when it comes to food and food preparation. Imagine preparing tuyo ala elitista. Hard to fathom but he did make it really grand.

Anyway, we went to Amici Di Don Bosco and it was a flurry of activities. The location itself is setup like a school cafeteria, which reminded me of my days at UST Pay High School. If it's your first time, you would have no clue what to do. But me, being the sleuth that I am, researched on the place before I went there.I read somewhere that there are different counters where you order food. Pasta, pizza, panini and gelato are served at different counters.

Upon getting off the car, we were hit by the scent of Italian seasoning. That's when you know you aren't lost. We went up the steps of 'Amici' and was pleasantly surprised to see lots of people eating. Mostly upper-class citizens of Makati braving the rainy condition of that saturday afternoon.

Once you enter, on your immediate left would be the pasta counter. Alona and I grabbed a Lasagne al Forno and Canelloni Agni Spinaci,plus a huge bottle of Lipton Iced Tea. The lines were long and people were queueing to grab some food,but well worth it because the service is quick.

I also ordered some Four Seasons pizza with artichokes and olives. But the longest line was for the infamous Don Bosco gelato. As we sat down to enjoy our repast, it was quickly understood why 'Amici'had long lines for the gelato. It was simply sinfully good! The pizza was ordinary, the pasta was great,but the gelato was to die for!

Mine was Tobleron flavoured while Alona's was strawberry. For P35.00, it was more than worth it. I didn't take pics, but I brought homw the pasta menu which you can get here.

This place deserves another visit, and would definitely be part of my weekly eating adventure. Fast, affordable and absolutely yummy!

confusion

2006-10-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

Just utterly confused right now with beh. Help?

Guess WHO?

2006-08-28T07:39:00.000+08:00

Ma fille préférée outre de toutes les fois !
KC Concepcion, qui a toujours beau.... Je l'aime !

Pamangkin, Yay!

2006-08-26T10:16:00.000+08:00

This is my new nephew Chris Justin Del Rosario. Cute noh?!?
May sipon pa!

Dreams

2006-08-24T11:08:00.000+08:00

Last night, I dreamt of my bestfriend who was killed last February 14.

I really loved him and treated him as a real brother.

The dream seemed to last only for seconds. We were on a jeepney, going through this highway. Everything was blurred, but I remember going through a factory of Ritz crackers, which was weird, but then again dreams are weird.

I suddenly saw his face clearly, and he was smiling at me. I forgot what he was saying, but I knew that he was saying goodbye. I knew this because I kept on saying: "Mag-iingat ka, mag-iingat ka..." (You take care, you take care).

I guess it really is time to say goodbye. I was not able to say goodbye to him properly....

On the night of February 14, 2006, Duke and I were supposed to have our yearly date. Every Valentine's day, we try to go out, even if we're not lovers.

We have been through so much together, we were in love once, but that turned into a different kind of love.

I was waiting for him and was wondering why he was not dropping by....minutes turned into hours.

I fell asleep waiting for him.

By morning, my cousin woke me up and told me that my bestfriend had died, with 2 gunshot wounds and 4 stab wounds, after getting into a fight with a long-time nemesis.

I asked my mom to go to the morgue to identify his body. From that point up to the time that he was buried, I didn't have the guts to visit him. I wanted to remember him as what he was in life, and not in death.

I guess he got tired of waiting for me to say goodbye.

I miss you Duke. I'm sorry.

Showbuzz

2006-08-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

Troy Montero - Aubrey Miles Nuptial

My GOSH! These guys have been together for 2 years already (little did I know), but I think this one's better since they are both beautiful. Imagine Troy and that harlot of a dwarf Nikki being wed together...EGAD!

They have been living in, as was told on one of the tabloids here in Manila.

To both of you, good luck!

Better Days

2006-08-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging in a while, busy with work and with Barry.

See you guys later.

Oh, hello to Aileen, Kai, Floyd, and everyone at JG.

Bhe. Love.

2006-07-24T06:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, the best things come unexpected, and that's what came up right now. I lost a love, but gained a lifetime romance. Introducing my new love, Barry Escudero!

Right now, he's a long way aways in Cotabato City, but we keep in touch regularly. He keeps me happy and sends little notes every. Calls me up at 2am to see if I'm ok. I love you bhe.

I can't believe that I have my baby Barry. He's everything that I never knew I wanted in a man. Strong, handsome, sweet and caring. He's a great provider and treats me like a queen. I wish we can always be together, but our work keeps us apart.

I think of my baby all of the time.

I love you bhe!

MUGGED!

2006-07-24T06:44:00.000+08:00

My cellphone was almost snatched from me yesterday. I was so stupid to use my cellphone in a jeepney going to work at 4AM.

What was I thinking?

The mugger snatched the phone and I held on to it. He was about to stab my shoulder, but I pulled away, causing the cellphone to slip to the jeepney's seat.

I pushed the cellphone to the floor and fortunately, the jeepney driver revved up and sped away.

THANK YOU LORD!

I'm never ever gonna carry any valuables to work ever again.

Oh boy.....

Comfort

2006-07-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

If you're Pinoy, how can you not fall in love with this picture? Like, tuyo, tinapa, maalat na itlog, and kamatis? (dried fish, smoked fish, salted fermented eggs, and tomatoes)

The ultimate pinoy comfort food.

Zsa Zsa!

2006-07-17T11:08:00.000+08:00

Romeo

2006-07-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

A night of Romeo

Luck Does Change, God Is Good.

2006-07-13T08:17:00.000+08:00

A few days ago, I was utterly depressed, doomed to a life of perpetual grief. Suddenly, my luck changed.
When God closes a door...he opens another one. Hehehehehe.

Love life can wait, I have to focus on career.

Enter Mobi. Life saver. My new home -- PSC:

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. I went to work all gloomy and agitated. Thinking of ways to get away from it all.

My whole world was deteriorating.

I was supposed to go to Bora on the 17th of July with some friends from Sykes, but then, management called and said I'd be in training for 2 weeks. Which meant that I had to forgo with the trip. And to add insult to injury, my training room was supposed to be in a room called Boracay. (insert cynical laugh here.)

The irony of it all. And to make it worse, my beloved Tim and I were at the and of our ropes.

During the course of training, we were bombarded by a plethora of good news. And by good news, I mean MONEY. Moolah. Who would not rejoice?

And Tim and I? We settled for a truce for the time being. So all is well as of now.

When God gives, he delivers big-time.

So, soooo good.

Cute Guy on LRT

2006-07-11T07:29:00.000+08:00

I saw this guy on the train, and he's really cute. But this picture doesn't do him any justice.

He got off at Quirino Station... hope to see him again.

OMG! Tom Taus SEXY!!!!! F*CK I WANT HIM!!!

2006-07-11T07:16:00.000+08:00

I knew he was gonna be something when he grows up...would you believe this?

Is that a hint of bi-ness I detect?

oh well.......

Distortion

2006-07-10T18:37:00.000+08:00

Changing lives, changing ways.

Amstarting a brand new life ahead and it looks so scary, but i have to wing it.

Wish me luck!

Playingwith Photoshop

2006-07-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

See the difference:

Before:

After:

My Sleeping Partners

2006-07-08T06:05:00.000+08:00

There are those nights that are lonely.

Where you feel like you need heat.

Fortunately, I have got the most perfect bed partners:

WTF?!?

2006-07-08T03:34:00.000+08:00

courtesy of Kristoff.

Kill Bill

2006-07-07T03:26:00.000+08:00

Saw this post on Break.com, an awesome ad for Kill Bill.

Bukkake

2006-07-07T03:24:00.000+08:00

Totally innocent, until your mind gets to digest it:

Duwende

2006-07-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

Si Jovan.

Unexplainable.

Indescribable.

Force Majeure.

Jovan.

The name above all names.

Rugby...mmmmm

2006-07-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

I discovered rugby, and I love it.

Meet these gorgeous rugby players:

Diva

2006-07-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

I love this girl sooo much, so am supporting her by buying her CD.

Love yah regine!

Dr. Condoleezza Rice on Bush

2006-07-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

Condoleeza Rice in response to a question on George Bush.

Noli on Crack

2006-07-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

Smashing.

Waiting.

2006-07-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

I have been waiting for this moment to come.

I do not know if it's for real this time, or just another period of disappointment.

I have been waiting for him for 4 years, and I can't wait any longer.

It's now or never.

Please.

What a dream boat....

2006-07-05T04:49:00.000+08:00

Love those dreamy eyes...that mischievous grin...makes you wanna burst in girly giggles...

Believe it or not, its Bill Gates, Microsoft founder.

It was after the launch of Windows 1.0, circa 1983.

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!

2006-07-05T01:53:00.000+08:00

It's still in the drafting process, but OMG!!!!

Can't wait for it....am keeping my eye on this one....

Funny

2006-07-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

(insert gay evil laugh here)

And my personal favorite

2006-07-04T04:33:00.000+08:00

Archangel

Quotes My Mike

2006-07-04T04:19:00.000+08:00

Some noteable quotes from the Kiss My Mike blog:

Better late than pregnant.

Behind the clouds are the other clouds.

It's better to cheat than to repeat!

Do unto others... then run!!!

When all else fails, follow instructions.

To err is human, to errs is humans.

No guts, no glory... no ID, no entry.

Birds of the same feather that prays together... stays together.

Birds of the same feather make a good feather duster.

Better late than later....(i love this one)

No man is an island because time is gold.

When it rains...it floods.

Try and try until you succeed... or else try another.

If you can't beat them, shoot them.

An apple a day is too expensive.

An apple a day makes seven apples a week.

Birds of the same feather are the same birds.

Do not do unto others what you can't do.

An apple a day is not an apple a night.

When the cat is away, the mouse is alone.

If others can do it, don't help.

Tell me who your friends are and I will tell you mine.

Early to bed, early to rise makes you sleepy in the afternoon. (very true)

Priceless

2006-07-04T04:14:00.000+08:00

buying a camera.......$200

having keys duplicated.............$20

catching your ex on cam with a scorpion:

priceless.

LOL.

This is actually an AIDS awareness campaign.

SUPERMAN

2006-07-04T04:10:00.000+08:00

No Life

2006-07-04T03:24:00.000+08:00

What is the meaning of life?

An age old question that everyone tries so hard to define.

One Simpsons episode that I recall was when Homer was asking God about something. God couldn't answer this and just asked Homer if he would just want to know the meaning of life.

Here at the call center environment, life is unnatural. No life.

You wake up. You go to work. You go home. You sleep.

That's mostly it. If you're energetic, you go out on weekends. If you're a couch potato, then your life ends there.

I was watching the Wonder Woman DVD that I bought recently and came upon this familiar woman who played Queen Hippolyte, Wonder Woman's mother.

And then I realized that this woman was the grandmother of Malcolm in "Malcolm in the Middle" (played by Cloris Leachman).

Before:

16 Years After:

If that's life, then I want her life. Still acting at that age, that's a huge WOW.

Irritating

2006-07-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

I was writing this really long blog about my weekend, when suddenly, a program crashed and this freakin' blog was suddenly erased.

Am so frustrated right now.

Anyway instead of writing the blog again, I decided to just post the pictures and explain later.

Basically, me, my friend, and my mom went to Greenhills for shopping and I took some pics.

I also was visited by my friend Collins, which you will see at the end of this blog post.

But what I really loved was this guy at Starbucks:

Me and Floyd at the useless FULLY BOOKED:

9-11:

Wonder Woman DVD:

IMAX at the back of the painfully huge SM Mall of Asia:

Floyd eating a burger at Mexicali:

Collins and me:

There. That's my photo blog.

The last one is a pic of my mom at Starbucks.

C yah!

Saturday Shopping

2006-07-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

bought a 2nd hand phone. A Samsung e360, whichcost me 5K. I think it's worth it considering that thepicture quality is good.The first pic I took was at Mexicali:

(Size reduced to 1/2 of original)

It's pretty amazing, and I love the cute phone. It fits perfectly in my hands.

Updates later, am pooped!

Takoyaki

2006-07-01T05:12:00.000+08:00

I almost forgot about this one. Few people appreciate the joys of eating a Takoyaki ball.

It's a fluffy invention by the japanese. The first Takoyaki that I had was introduced to me by my cousin Ate Christine Ang. It was a small stall down in SM North EDSA called Samurai Foods. Now, I believe, it can also be enjoyed in Makati, at The Enterprise food lounge.

I went to Wikipedia and found its meaning:

Takoyaki (literally fried or baked octopus) is a popular Japanese dumpling made of batter, diced octopus, tenkasu, pickled ginger, konnyaku, and green onion, topped with okonomiyaki sauce, green laver (aonori), mayonnaise, and katsuobushi (fish shavings). Making takoyaki requires a takoyakiki, a special frying pan made of cast iron with hemispherical molds. There is a similarly named dish called Ikayaki but it is a broiled whole squid and bears no resemblance.

Although takoyaki can easily be made at home if the equipment is available, it is usually considered to be fast food and mostly sold on the streets. Frozen takoyaki are also sold, and there are restaurants in which customers can cook their own takoyaki at their tables. Takoyaki is especially popular in the Kansai region, but has risen in popularity in other parts of Japan. In the Kansai region, takoyaki is eaten as a side dish with a bowl of cooked rice. Elsewhere in Japan, it is eaten without rice as a snack food.

Soliloquy

2006-07-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

The Internet.

Most of my waking hours are spent in this digital world.

At times, I find myself desperate enough to try to find meaning in huge databases we know as webpages.

I remember those days when I was younger. The word "internet" was non-existent. You'd be happy enough enjoying the sun, or basking underneath the shadows of the huge narra that stands guard in your backyard, while holding a good Swet Valley High book.

Well, yes, the Nintendo console was already famous then. But then again, it did not hold your life hostage to extreme extents.

With the advent of cellphones, laptops, PDA, and all that jazz, came the birth of irritating people. These people include your friends, family, and whatnot.

Why irritating? Say for example you are talking with your bestfriend about your innermost feelings, your fears, and your tribulations. Suddenly, your friend's cellphone rings. Who will they prioritize? The damn cellphone.

Oh well, ravings of a lunatic. That's me......... will continue later.

Britney's New Do

2006-07-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

She look better with black hair.

Career Move

2006-07-01T00:13:00.000+08:00

I am now thinking of switching companies jsut for the fun of it.

My current one is getting boring, plus am floating as of now.

I think I'd be applying back at the old company and see what they can offer....

Cameron's Nipple

2006-07-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

She popped her nipple in the Bahamas. She looks transgendered. Looking at her nowadays is kinda scary.

*****PHOTOBUCKET DELETED THE DARN PICTURE*****

For the full story, click here.

Is Overrated

2006-06-30T23:29:00.000+08:00

Out of 1,000 guys on the internet, only one would be polite enough not to ask you about sex.

I mean, it's ridiculous.

Every guy who I talk to online could not help it but ask when was the last time I had sex or if I was impressed with what they have to offer.

Guys, please.

Men don't realize that chivalry and a bit of suspense is more appealing than being blunt about it. I mean, come on!

These days, romance seem to have vanished. Too fast, too soon.

Take for instance this guy I am talking to. His name is Hans and he says he is a call center honcho. All was well until he asked if my pussy was shaved.

It's like: "Working in the call center is such a challenge but rewarding nonetheless...by the way, is your pussy shaved?"

It puts you off men entirely.

When will they learn?

Prada On Screen

2006-06-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

The Devil Wears Prada

Fresh from college, Andy Sachs (Anne Hathaway) comes to New York in hopes of being a journalist. Instead, she accepts a job as a personal assistant to the demanding Miranda Priestly (Meryl Streep), editor in chief of the fashion magazine Runway, who forces Andy to compromise her ideals if she ever wants to make it in publishing.

I was told this was a great film by my friend in the US. It's the type of movie that you can take your boyfriend or husband to without them feeling any pain. I'm sure this movie will be a big hit, reminiscent of the "Pretty Woman" phenomenon.

Manila is HOT

2006-06-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

I was browsing Yahoo and came upon reviews of people from all over the world who have visited Manila.

Being Filipino, reading it made me smile.

Click here for the reviews.

an example:

You have to be Filipino to go around. If not you lose the beauty of the place. Foreigners are just blind to the charm of Manila. You just have to know how to get arouMisperceptions about Manila: Nice website. Crime is not rife in Manila compared with any large city in North America. In fact, violent personal crime is rare, especially for foreigners and strangers. I have lived here as an expat for 5 years. Far more terrorism in NY and DC than Manila. There are danger spots in the far south, but that is a 2hr. plane ride. I would walk in the worst Manila neighborhood at night before the best ones in NY, DC, or Chicago. The Philippines has been beaten up economically; please don't perpetuate distorted views based on paranoid State Department advisories. Ask people who know. Thanks. Tour Operator: n/a nd is all.

Poor Pinoy

2006-06-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

I saw this post on Metro Blogging Manila

"According to the United Nations Population Fund, the Philippines will remain poor unless we address our population growth. Following this argument, the church's stronghold in influencing the state is stopping reproductive health issues to be addressed by the government. The church is against condoms, pills and a multitude of family planning methods (except for the "natural" process) and most moves to curb population have been harshly criticized by the church. So, with these arguments, is it alright to surmise that Christianity is keeping the Philippines poor?

Alright, I agree that may have been harsh but the underlying problem here is that religion has a strong influence in the state. Whenever the government takes a stand that departs against the "natural" process that the church has approved, everyone from the CBCP to the Archdiocese of Manila will have a ready made draft ready to be announced at Sunday mass.

Going back to the source of the problem, how do you believe we should address the population issues that the UNPF wants us to address? Sweeping changes to the government policies seem to be the solution but how do you appease the church?"

There is a truth to this.

What can you do it you're stuck at work.

2006-06-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

OK.

You're at work and bored.

You drink coffee or iced tea and you still can stop fidgeting because boredom is slowly taking over you work day.

Fear not!

Try playing Absolut Vodka's game:

It's a game where you're supposed to look for the 82 vodka bottles...goodluck.

Perfect life.

2006-06-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

If you think about it, celebrities do have the perfect life.

From a distance, Nicole Kidman seemed happy in her wedding with country music sensation Keith Urban, look at them!

Not only that, celebrities also have the perfect body, take for example music icon Janet Jackson, lost 60 pounds in 4 months. Like, that's impossible!!!

But then again, they are all ultra-rich. I mean, this is her a year ago:

Money. It buys you happiness...maybe...

My Space

2006-06-27T16:06:00.000+08:00

I have met a lot of people through MySpace.com. Out of the 2500++ people there, only 8 ranked me. Thankfully, I got a perfect 10! YAY!

So indulge me and RANK me!

Will update when I go to work later tonight. Peace y'all!

Lazy Sunday

2006-06-25T17:16:00.000+08:00

Okay, it's Sunday and I'm in front of my computer waiting for a date.

Actually, I have 3 dates tonight, just friendly chatter over food and alcohol, nothing special.

I went to DanasDirt.com and the gossip blog states that no one has seen Suri Cruise, Tom Cruise's and Katie Holmes' new daughter.

Come to think of it, she's right. No one has seen the baby, and the blog speculates that maybe the baby doesn't really exist! I'll try to look for updates on this.

On a sadder note, big-time TV producer Aaron Spelling, father of Beverly Hill 90210's Tori Spelling died today.

He produced mega-blockbuster shows such as Charmed, Dynasty & Charlie's Angels.

Apart from being ultra-rich, he also died at a ripe old age of 83.

And then some...

2006-06-24T07:24:00.000+08:00

I suddenly find myself blogging full time. What with nothing to do at work and all, I decided to write about whatever is happening around me.

I was browsing through ABS-CBN's website and saw an alarming news! PLDT will be raising the prices for landline services. Well, I use Bayantel and they already increased their prices, albeit the gruesome customer service they give me. For the story on PLDT prices rising, click here.

I need to get a new camera and keyboard if I plan to do this blogging thing. This keyboard is ancient.

But I also bought a cool optical mouse (yay, updating stuff, aren't we?) and I took a picture of it on my cool PeopleSupport mouse pad.

Hooray. (if you did not get it, I was being sarcastic.)

A reason being that while the glorious call center Sykes gave out cool varsity bags for Chrsitmas, all we got was this lousy mouse pad. Well, who's complaining? Surprisingly, a lot.

Just got home from work.

As I mentioned earlier, all I did at work was blog my time away. After that, I spent a bit of time going home, first on the bus to the LRT station:

I forgot to take pics on the LRT train, due to the fact that I was reading this months's issue of YES! magazine. Cover would be Dina Bonnevie and Francine Prieto. And since my scanner died on me last month, you have to buy a copy to see for yourself.

After the LRT ride, I went on a jeepney, and ended up in front of my PC.

Jeepney Ride.

My Auntie Deaerst, Tita Edith arrived home from Texas last night. I heard she was at my Great Aunt's house just beside our house. I need to go there to see if I can haggle for some moolah.

See yah later oh blog my friend.

And one last note for today...

2006-06-24T04:45:00.000+08:00

Ryan Philippe glistening....yum.

Cutey Stefani Shoes

2006-06-24T04:25:00.000+08:00

Gwen Stefani's L.A.M.B. store would soon be selling these designer gold shoes for babies:

OMG BLOG gave the best description for those cutey toddlers who would wear the shoes- "He is destined to be either a star or gay."

Woah...Drive-Through Starbucks

2006-06-24T04:16:00.000+08:00

Unfortunately, it's only located in North Dakota USA.

So us unlucky Filipino folks would have to wait in line...standing up.

Get off your backsides you lazy peeps!

I long for that Cafe Valencia......ooooohhhhh! YUM!

LOL.

bloggers galore

2006-06-23T23:07:00.001+08:00

I am actually not doing anything at work right now, seriously. I mean, I get paid big and all but I don't really do anything.

I sit around my entire shift and browse through pages and pages of other people's blogs...here are some:

http://www.bryanboy.com

-memoirs of a multi-sexual 17-year-old gay boy who's absolutely fabulous. He knows it all, mostly dealing with fashion and people, as well as his exploits.

http://www.rossmathews.net/blog

- this infamous intern from Jay Leno's "The Tonight Show" actually blogs all the time. He is wacky and absolutely loveable. I watched this episode where he temped as a weather news anchor. Totally funny!

http://www.danasdirt.com

- if you're looking for the latest Hollywood insider gossip, this is the place to be. But I warn you, there's some Simpson sisters bashing, as well as, trash talk on some celebs.

For some good ol' Pinoy fun, there's

http://chona.blogspot.com

It's a journal of a life of a Filipina maid, who's a wannabe socialite. Unfortunately, it has not been updated in 2 years, but reading the past posts can leave you laughing till you fart! Guaranteed!

Oh well, that's how I spend my day. I was actually absent from work due to a flu and sore throat. I don't get inspired to blog when I'm at home, partly because I am LAZY.

I also colored my hair semi-blonde, which I am thinking of changing again into a deeper, richer brown.

I don't think its working, here's a pic with my friend Jayson:

It looks reddish here, but believe me, in daylight it looks blondish. Like Katie Couric blonde during the 90's:

Well, not exactly blonde, I know, but it's hard to explain.

I heard Nicole Kidman is getting married, going back to her Catholic roots. All I can say is, BRAVO! If Scientology makes you crazy weirdo like Tom Cruise

then I applaud Nicole Kidman.

Speaking of Tom Cruise, here he is rapping in Tokyo:

Also, Le Simpson is looking hot these days....lovely.

There's another article on OMG Blog that's completely hilarious... Jada Pinkett Transitioning:

OMG! She so definitely looks like a tranny!

See you next time!

ahehehe

2006-06-15T12:49:00.000+08:00

Shit happens.

can't do nothing bout it

Wazzit

2006-06-01T04:13:00.000+08:00

Been a while since I last posted...

A lot of things has been happening. I can't write about em yet because it might pre-empt the circumstance. Oh well....

My great-aunt died yesterday.

I have to tell you that we are very closely-knit, our family is.

Another day, another death...oh well.

Andrew is in the US already.

Timmy is coming.

What else can I ask for?

More money.

Yikes.

This is the moment....

2006-05-11T05:57:00.000+08:00

The time is getting ripe...

He's coming and I'm ready

Timmy?

New pic:

Blogging, Love Life, and Tagaytay.

2006-04-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

Have been a while since I last updated my Blog.

Work is consistent, and very constant, can't complain though. Getting mucho bucks. Love life...still the same. Timmy is still there. But I hope he comes home real soon. I miss him a lot.

I was in a play in highschool called 'Frustrations'. It was a play about a family, their life and struggles.

The one line I remember being said was 'When a woman reaches a certain age, she should not marry for love but for convenience...love, is for the young..'. Which I highly disagree with...

There should always be love in a relationship. Though I also believe that love is not what we assume it to be. To me, love is a mixture of sex, companionship, and trust.

Last April 8th, my friends Bon, Ginger, Macon and Archie, and I went to Tagaytay.

We went to Leslie's and had lunch there, then went to a smaller place to drink beer. It was fun being with old friends again. We talked about the past, present, and the future. I'll post pics once I get them.

It's funny how you grow older in a matter of days. You sleep and next time you wake up, you're 27 years old. That's my age on my birthday. Damn, am nearing 30 and am still doing the same stuff.

I want to be spontaneous...but can't do it. I have obligations. Here I am again complaining about being a bread-winner. Damn.

My family can't stand up for themselves. I should just stop providing for them so they learn how to do it for themselves. Grrr.... I am mad because if I stop providing for them, everyone will think of me as evil. DAMN.

Oh well, as soon as Tim gets back, am definitely gonna live separate from my family...let's see what happens...

My new love

2006-04-07T04:06:00.000+08:00

The end of an era

2006-03-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

My Andrew era.

Take care sweetness....

Be safe, be great.

Booty Call

2006-03-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

Hummmmmm.....another weekend...another day for booty calls.

I only slept for like 2 hours to get ready for Akie, a guy I haven't seen before...hope he's ok.

Anyway, more updates later.

New boys! LOL!

2006-02-28T15:46:00.000+08:00

Nico and Me

Khan and Me

Jayson and Me

Ryan and Me

Alfren and Me

Nagsimula Sa Barbecue, Paalam Rey

2006-02-15T16:12:00.000+08:00

Rey Solis, mas killa sa pangalang "Duke".

Nakilala kita matagal na panahon na...lumaki tayo, nagkamalay, at saka nag tagpo ang landas....ng dahil sa barbecue.

Tuwang tuwa ako nung nakilala kita. Kasi sabi ko, ang gwapo naman nito! Nalaman ko ang buong pagkatao mo, pati ako ay nakilala mo ng buong buo. Di ko malilimutan yung gabing natulog ka sa bahay, natandaan mo ba yun? Takot nga ako kay Lola nun kaya sa labas kita pinatulog... magdamag kitang pinaypayan nun. Magdamag kitang sinamahan.

Oo, nagkasama rin tayo ng matagal. Andami na nating pinagdaanan. Nagkahiwalay, pero bumabalik pa rin. Kasi, mahal natin ang isa't isa. Bilang magkaibigan, at halos magkadugo.

Ma-mi-miss ko yung kakulitan mo. Yung pakiramdam ko pag kasama kita. Alam mo yun. Di ko lang inaamin sayo. Sabi mo sakin nun na ang gaan ng pakiramdam mo pag kasama ako. Ako rin naman ganuon.

Kahit san man ako mapunta, kahit saan kaman madako, mahal pa rin kita Duke. Kinuha ka man ngayon ng panginoon, alam ko namang mabuti kang tao. Napakabuti mo sakin, at higit sa lahat,ikaw lang ang nagmahal sakin ng totoo.

Duke, miss na kita agad. Pero mas ok na ito, at least, di ka na masasaktan pa ulit.

Paalam Duke, sanka man nanduon ngayon, mahal na mahal kita. Wag ka susuko, maski nandyan ka na.

Alam mo naman, nandito lang ako, pag kailangan mo.

Hindi na kita pinuntahan kasi ayaw ko makita ka na ganuon. Mahal na mahal kita.

Panginoon, alam ko po na marami kaming kasalanan na nagawa, ngunit sanay'y ipagkaloob mo sa aking mahal na Rey ang inyong pag-gabay at pag unawa, lalo na po ang inyong kapatawaran. tulungan mo po siya sa kabilangbuhay. Wag niyo po siyang pababayaan. Mahal na mahal ko po siya. At sana po, iparating niyo sa kanya ang aking pagmamahal...Amen.

Fun with Photoshop

2006-02-15T02:03:00.000+08:00

Too Damn Lazy

2006-02-11T12:57:00.000+08:00

Been cooked up in my room by choice....

just got the DSL hooked up and nothing to do....always holed up in my own world of solitude.

Today I will be meeting up with Allan Alcalde, a guy I met on MySpace (i love that site).

Here's a pic of him:

Details will follow.

Gulong ng Palad...Wheel of Fortune, or Wheel of Life.

Funny how that cliche sneaks up on you. One day you're up, seconds later, you're in the dumps. Bu am lucky enough to withstand thepressure.

My Baby Alfren and my "good" friend Nico

2006-02-11T00:41:00.000+08:00

Here's Alfren, my baby boy from Ballet Manila:

Here's another baby boy, his name's Nico..mmm..mmm...good

Radio Romance

2006-02-03T03:44:00.000+08:00

Meeting guys is a great boredom buster. I have met quite a few after I broke up with my ex.

Breakin up is hard to do...so the song goes. Yeah, its very hard to go through it. It's tough.

I was on an FX taxi, cruising along the roads of Manila. The driver turned on the radio to this cheezy radio station. It was one of those 'Joe D' Mango' type shows. A caller was asking for some advice about her not being able to forget her boyfriend even if they have broken up 2 years ago.

He advised her to think something bad about the guy to help forget him...

Well, that won't work for me...I can't even think of one single thing that's bad about my ex. He's perfect.....actually he more than that. The fact that he does not seem to know how great he is adds to his charm.

Andrew is a great guy. he just needs to know that himself...

Heartbreaks are a part of life. That's what I actually live for. At least you have experienced something special.

The story of Antony and Cleopatra, Romeo and Juliet, Samson and Delilah...all tragic... but oh, how we love the romance.

For now, romance is all I am after, sans love.

Hooked on "Idol"

2006-01-26T02:54:00.000+08:00

American Idol, a show that millions of people watch all over the world. It has everything...

Drama....

Comedy....

Suspense....

And you get mesmerized by the talent, and lack of talent of Americans.

If you look at it Filipinos and Americans have a lot in common. Watching "Idol" gives us a peek on what America really is. Its just like any other place. Full of talented people, and crazy people. Yes, crazy.

We'll see what happens...

Conflicts

2006-01-26T01:02:00.000+08:00

Mars... the ultimate regalia of war and conflict, may have been the reason behind this salvo of drama in my life.

As I awoke from my diurnal slumber, an occurence produced by my night time billet, my cousin-in-law's wife entered the house with thespian flare. As if a goddess on Olympus, she announced her arrival.

Earlier, my mother told me about a small feud between my cousin-in-law and my own brother... something to do with the upkeep of our humble abode...

My eyebrows raised at the blasphemy of it. You see, I have been constantly reminding them of the horrid conditions of the house. I mean, their stuff strewn everywhere.

I am the bread winner. The least you can expect from all of them is a certain amount of respect.

As a result of their rivalry, an object of importance was put on the line. This object, which she gave to me as a house-warming present, was being pulled out of the house, due to the conflict between her and my sibling.

I have to admit that I was wrong when I declared out loud that she may take all that is hers and shove it up her ass. LOL... yeah I was wrong to say it out loud... but it felt sooo right!

Well, that started the high drama that played for an hour or so. I becoming quite brash and loud, she becoming even louder.

To make the story short, I asked them to pull their weight and do what is expected of them, even asking them to pitch in with the household utilities. To each his own.

I recognize my mistakes and admit them. I never scolded anyone, or asked too much from anyone. I guess people take these things for granted.

You ever wonder what makes life interesting. To me, conflicts such as what happened adds a little color into your life.

What astonishes me is that during bouts of household fury, I can step out of character and look into the situation, as if being the audience watching a horrible travesty. In that moment, you see things as being comical, with no sense at all.

The downside of living with family is that you can't say anything to anyone directly because you are afraid to hurt their feelings, but you tell it to anyone else who would want to hear anyway. The walls have ears and gossip and rumors run their cycle.

Until it reaches the person you are talking about. This is where war and conflicts are bred.

Oooops, I Did It Again!

2006-01-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

Yes, i did another stupid thing... tried to contact my ex... and again, made me feel foolish. Well, life's like that. It's a good thing he did'nt say anything bad or sarcastic..well, maybe that's how I would like it see it.

There are times when you do something right, or nice, and the outcome ain't that favourable to you. Whatever you do, you can't seem to escape fate. Take for example Oedipus. A prophecy about him killing his own father and marrying his own mother came true. As a young man, he fled his town to stop this prophecy from being fulfilled. But he did it all unknowingly.

But my point, after all that inane babbling, is that I should be feeling guilty, but am not. The reason for this is, I have no idea why I am feeling guilty with breaking up with my ex.

Unlike Oedipus, it was only natural for him to feel guilty after finding out what he had done, which he had done unkowingly; I have no idea what I have done to deserve what I am going through right now.

I mean, I gave everything that I could have given, and then some...

...maybe that is the problem... I gave too much.

Oh well, c'est la vie.

A lot of things are going through my mind right now, about work and stuff, but I know it's not worth writing about. I don't want to be reminded of the bad things that goes through my life. If you notice, most of the stuff I write seems to revolve around one person. My Ex.

He's worth remembering.

This is sooooo true.

2006-01-06T05:05:00.000+08:00

"I created my very own first breakup rule:

Destroy all pictures where he looks sexy and you look
happy.

Breakup rule No. 2: Until emotionally
stabilized, enter no stores.

Breakup rule No. 3:
Never stop thinking about him, even for a moment.
because that's the moment he'll appear.

And finally, the most important breakup rule:

No matter who broke your heart or how long it takes to heal,
you'll never get through it without your friends."

---Carrie Bradshaw, SEX AND THE CITY

Another dreadful week.

2006-01-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

After the fun, comes the tragic moments. Thank God its not that tragic. Financially, my resources have dwindled due to some unfortunate circumstances......HAAAAYYYY naku!

Fortunately, I have other resources to rely on, thanks in part to Robie Jones. This guy helps me out a lot.

But, I had to do something drastic. Yes, I sold stuff, I wont mention what, but it soooo hurts me to part ways with them.....hay naku.

Just to get by. I mean, I'm the bread winner here. I don't want to be, but I have to. Its such a huge burden to bare. And no one seems to be helping out, or try to help out. I just wish all of their luck changes so I dont have to work for a while.

We just had our family reunion on the last day of 2005. It was fun, I won a mini-transistor radio that I get to use on my way to work. It helps to dispell the boredom that creeps up to you while travelling.

Travelling is one thing I hate. Actually, what I hate most about it is the way Philippine jeepneys annoy you. I hate the way they drive. It freaks me out when they speed all the way to Buendia, and you're left slightly gasping for life. Not to mention the hazards of getting mugged inside the jeepney. I was a victim once. And it gave me nightmares.

There are also the freakazoids that litter the metro. The spitters, the nose-blowers, the sleeper-come-snorers. The coughers, the snackers, and the dreaded smokers. Don't get me wrong, I mean, I am a smoker myself. But smoking in a crowded jeep with kids or old people beside is a no-no.

What will it take to get an ounce of respect from these people. Lack of education is not an excuse. All of us were born with a certain amount of respect for others. I think they just choose to not excercise that.

That's why I have taken the FX taxies lately. But it too can fall prey to muggers. That's also one reason I don't take my fancy cellphone anymore. I just take my Sun Cellphone on a 3210 Nokia...

Well, that's all for today. Here is a recent pic of me and my niece Jennika. That's my other niece Angie in the background, taken at our house.

YEHEY!Cam Phone!

2005-12-30T08:49:00.000+08:00

i BOUGHT A NEW CAM FONE! Yay!

Its a motorola e398, very nice cam, as well as a great mp3 player.

this is a small pic i took of a building in makat.

This one is of my god child named Neo!

this is me and my loving baby boy Rolly.

Just me...

Its just another day... full of rainbows.

2005-12-27T06:41:00.000+08:00

Oh well, its been a long while since I last posted here on my blog. A lot of things have happened.

1. I have been elevated as tier 3 support at my current job. Not a lot of perks, more responsibilities, and more stress. Can't complain though.

2. I have my lovelife on full blast, thanks to the one I love. Will post his new pics here.

3. I have another person who I love, whom I treat as my baby boy. He's the best. As time passes (I've known him for 6 year), he grows more handsome.

4. My family is well and happy.

5. I met Vee, Sass, Ate Litz, Issey, Dee, Nadine, Neenahw, and all the people at STRAP.

These are the things I am thankful for. Its been one helluva year, a great ride. With its ups and downs, I managed to stay afloat. Not only that, but the blessings are up to the brim.

I lost some friends, gained new ones. I regret a certain part of my life, but regrets are best kept in the past.

After all the struggles, the seasons of rain... God still kept me under His wings. That means a lot to me.

I'm Sorry

2005-12-09T07:06:00.000+08:00

For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors

That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face

That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

Dawning of a new day.

2005-11-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

My brother just left for Macau.

Its the dawn of a new era for us. Me, my brother, and my Mom.

Most of our lives, we were riding at the back seat. Always the unsung heroes.

My brother, hopefully, will be successful in Macau. My mom in the USA. And me?

Well, I'd rather stay here in Manila.

My Mom and Me

wtf...photobucket...grrrr

2005-11-15T08:16:00.000+08:00

look at them pics...oh well, it will reset on the 17th of each month.

hai-yah!

Ahem, Ladies and Gentlemen, JC!

2005-10-31T17:03:00.000+08:00

Another guy I met on MySpace, and sure enough, he's one intelligent and handsome dude! Delightful!

Sorry ladies, I had him in my room for a good24 hours.

My New Baby Arvin and Me

2005-10-30T09:25:00.000+08:00

We met online. He needed someone to take care of him. I obliged. And gave my love...

Love you sweety!!!

My MySpace

2005-10-30T08:19:00.000+08:00

Check me out!

Leading A Double Life

2005-10-23T03:33:00.000+08:00

Its definitely hard leading a double life. One day you're this funny and surreal person, the next is you're prim and proper.

Argh! It's maddening how you change your personality to fit the situation. I can't tell more. If only I was free enough to do so. Only Suporn will give me freedom (a nod to Ms. Vee).

I met this guy name John Guzman, tall, buffed, well-educated... very handsome. Only the girls can understand this.....ARGH!!!! So frustrating!

Crab Mentality

2005-10-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

"Crab mentality" - a metaphor defined as the collective effort of the many with unreasonable thinking or empty instinct to disseminate untruthful rumors or negative innuendos to bring down or cause failure to a target principal idea, society, institution or individuals. Similar to crabs void of instinct trying to cling to others pulling down the rest of the crabs in the chain back to the bottom of the bushel foiling success to escape.

The truth of the matter is, Filipinos love to pull you down. Specially when they see that you're up there. Tsk, tsk.