An Unlikely Ally - Stephanie

Stephanie. Finally, I have a source for comfort. Thank you Stephanie, for making me feel great. I felt so alone and abandoned after my break up with Andrew. Now I know why Andrew speaks of her so highly. She is a pillar of strength at such a young age.

I envy her. She seems to have it all together. When I was her age, I was so wild and obnoxious. I did everything that was "in" at that time. Drinking and all that.

Stephy "Sparkles" made me realize that not everything that happened was bad. The only thing I feel bad about right now is not seeing Andrew and not saying goodbye to him when he goes back to the US.

Sadly, it is one irony in life. A joke on me.

Well, when Andrew and I started dating, he told me that one thing that he loathes the most was being neglected. I never gave him that. Never abandoned him. But haha, life plays such cruel games. He abandoned me.

I rebelled against this by going out with a lot of guys, none of whom could match what I had with Andrew.

I miss him. I miss his smile, his kissess, his laught. The way he looks at me when he is happy, or sad. The way he smiles at you when he talks. The way he listens.

I miss his glassess, and cutting his nails. I miss his voice, and the way he walks. I miss the times that we play around and giggle around. I miss his body on my bed.

I miss the funny way he tells stories, and the times when we talk about Spongebob and Patrick. Remember the time we fought because you accidentally slapped me hard? LOL.... I could'nt notice how such a young person be so matured. That time brought out the best in Andrew.

I can never see you again, you know its not my choice. It was yours.

I'll miss you ol' buddy.

And to Stephanie, take care of my little baby boy.

Another Edited Pic

he was in my friend's list and i made it better:

compare the difference:

The Kiss

Martial Law

i'm here at work, there was a rally here to commemorate our freedom from martial law, which was in the 70's. my mom said it was a really dark time here in the philippines. no one was allowed to go out after 10pm. every shop store and what not stopped operations at that hour. violators were arrested and detained.

its a good thing we have our freedom now. i can go out as late as i want to (if only my schedule will allow). before, i used to go out a whole lot, every weekend me and my friend Kim go out to bars and party. I guess I already outgrew that.

We'd go out to those really cool places, where the cool kids hang out. Mostly children of politicians, stars, and rich people. Before, being with these people was important to me. Funny how much your priorities change in a matter of 3 years.

A lot of things happen within a blink of an eye. That's why I feel that its important to enjoy each living moment. As of now, I can't enjoy it myself. Being stuck at work and all. I guess what i enjoy right now is the comfort that I bring my family. I worry for them. I am happy when i see them carefree, and only worry about what to eat for lunch or dinner.

I guess when you grow older, everything changes. A lot of people wish they were kids again. I do not. I love to grow old and see how everything around you change. You feel that everyone and everythin change when in fact, its you who are changing. As well as, the change in your perspective in life.

Shikamaru

I found this guy on MySpace. He has this great pic.

Check him out:

http://www.myspace.com/shikamaru22

But the thing about it is, he has a bit of skin flaws. So what I did was erased those flaws. Compare the difference.





This is the updated version:

Monday the 13th

Sniff.... smell the clean air after a day's rainy shower. Clear and clean and nice. That's how I like it. Fresh and clean. Clean of nuisances that destroy your day. Free of ex boyfriends that use you then treat you like nothing after. Free of all the boredom that they bring.

himitsu bako

i changed my blog link. its now http://himitsu-bako.blogspot.com

why the change? himitsu bako means "secret box"

its my little secret

Confusing

Okay, so there’s this guy, his name… let’s call him Surfer Dude. I like him a lot but we kinda decided that we will remain friends although its so easy to fall in love with him.

But right now, I am torn between loving him and I don’t know. He got angry that I published this blog. As you can see if you read my blog, I have documented instances when I meet other guys.

I am definitely confused now. I really like Surfer Dude, but he wants me to be… I don’t actually know what he wants.

Even I don’t know what to do…. Sigh…

hearts a-flutter

heart's a-flutter

so many men so little time... lots of guys try to catch your attention. ever since everyone knew i was single, here they come. 3 suitors in one day, even after work without sleep is tiresome. but kinda fun.

these guys are awesome and very nice. handsome too. there's allan, he's 5'10", cute guy and very generous. there's kenny, looks like japanese but nice and sincere. there's japhet, cool dude. plus a lot more...

i feel like am floating...

but then again, i can't find the right one. why is that?

Hey Andrew...Before I let you go, a last look back...

I could still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you love me makes me
Feel oh so right
But now I feel lost
Don't know what to do
Each and everyday I think of you
Holding back the tears
I'm trying with all my might


Because you're gonna leave me standing
All alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own
But baby before I let you go I want to say
I love you
I hope that you're listening coz it's true, baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah
So before I let you go I want to say
I love you...hmmm...

I wish that it would be just
Like before
I know I could have given you so
Much more
Even though you know I'd give the
New one, my love
I miss your smile; I miss your kiss
Each and everyday I'll ever miss
Coz baby it's you that I'm always
Dreaming of


Because you're gonna leave me standing
All alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow on My own
But baby before I let you go I want to say
I love you
I hope that you're listening coz it's true, baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah
So before I let you go, I want to say, yeah


Letting you go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I'll set you free, yeah
And I know, someday, somehow,
I'll find the way
To leave them all behind me
Give it all beneath to keep it baby


Before I let you go, I want to say
I love you
I hope that you're listening
Coz it's true, baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah
So before I let you go I want to say...
So before I let you go I want to say...
I love you

Blogger Attachment

I started this new Blogger thingy that you can patch on your MS Word program. I thinks it is cool! Blogger rocks.  

Nice Men...Great Guys

This is Ken, he is a great guy I met last Monday, August 29, 2005. Its soooo easy to love him, but unfortunately, he already flew to Beijing, China for a job. I miss him already...

There's another great guy, his name is Allan. We met last Sunday, August 28, 2005. We are good friends and we have a really big secret! But it's our little secret. I like him a lot. He's a very good friend to me. Love you Allan!