An Afterthought

Yesterday, I officially became a stalker. Well, not the obsessed kind. I sifted through this blog and found the first post I had. I realized it started because of one person, which I'll call Cloud. He was my first true love. He was way younger than me. Up to this day he's still mad at me and still, I am clueless as to why. Shows you how much of an ignoramous I am during that time. I still keep his letters, even the last one he gave me when we broke up.

I never had the chance to ask him why it was over, but I guess I already knew... and don't know if I will ever have the chance to ask him again. Since that day, he never spoke to me. His is the only birthday I never forget. This month is his birthday month.

Cloud is every girl's fantasy. A knight in shining armor... although during those days he was nerdy, but that was what was so adorable about him. It was funny because we loved Spongebob so much. He was 10 years younger than I am, and I still smile when I think about the first time we met in person. EDSA Shangri-La. Starbucks. He ran and hugged me. The Cloud I remember was very intelligent, sweet, honest.

I guess I was wrong for being a bitch. But hey, everyone makes mistakes. And this was the biggest ever. I envy the girl who would carry his name.

My last memory of him was also in the same area where we met. Corner of EDSA where the Shrine of the Virgin Mary is. It was raining and was very dark. Regrets often come in the end... but I smile each time I see him all grown up. IMY Cloud.

good vibes to you, person reading my blog 

-carla-